Because He Knows Best

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

It has been a while, right? It wasn't that I was super duper busy or what, I've just had no idea what to blog about. Bloggers like us do face some brain block sometimes. Here's the summary:

The last post was on November 2011, right? Around that time, I was in HUSM for clinical postings in four wards: Labour Room being the first, followed by Postnatal Ward and Pediatric Ward. During the second week, we were back in Kuantan as the lecturers were having conference; we were posted in the clinical lab. *sigh* Then, right after that, we had our final examination. Oh, yeah, we did have a revision week before that; I meet up with F4 but only Zyda and Kyra available. Nemo was at Auckland that time. Anyway, back to the exam, I didn't think I did a good job on that one though I came a bit prepared than before. It was just that I had a false sense of confidence that I'd do well. Argggh, I don't want to even think about it right now!

Then, the last one would be OSPE. Alhamdulillah, I made it. But still I have to hang around IIUM since there was a problem regarding my fee. I actually forgot to pay them before the final exam, which I always does. Then, it turned out that during the day I deposited the cash amounting RM 1500, the cash deposit broke down. I didn't get a receipt of proof for the payment and I had to go to the bank twice to lodge a report. It was hard since the car was at Terengganu that time. Luckily Kak Intan and Naqi were willing to be my drivers. Huhu.. Thanks guys. Up until now, I still don't get the status of the payment, whether it's successful or not.

Then, I was back in my home for a sweet three-weeks-holiday before the start of the new semester. Can't believe we're going to be in our second semester soon, I feel like going back to our first year. Huhu.. Well, a new page is beginning as I am going to turn 23 in a couple of days. This is the beginning to my so-called adult life, I presume? I mean, I can't act like a seven-years-old anymore, can I? (though I still want to!) But I really don't believe me if I said I would stop the childish acts from now on, when I can't even barely bring myself to do it. Hahahaha!

No, no, no! I don't bring my toys to class, I don't even play with them even I'm a proud owner of Pingoo, Bebe and Pow-oh. The last one I've bought was almost half a decade ago. I'm sure I've mentioned about my bunny, Tweeny, before right? The three kids were the gifts I've received during my birthdays. Bebe is a bear (yeah, the name wasn't fancy at all, but I like it), his age is almost six years now since I received it from a friend when I was in Form 5. Second in line is Pow-oh, a Pooh. He is almost two years, the same with my tiny Pingoo, a penguin. Why he? Because to me only dolls like Barbie are females.

Anyway, this year I'm gonna make more people fall in love with me. But don't take it literally. I would like to have more friends in the future that I can have fun and share the sadness with. So, I'm just gonna be myself, not changing anything. People need to love me for what I am, not for what I am not. Friends are whom you decide to keep, I hope to be the one of the many they've decided to keep. This year too, I hope daddy will open up a bit more regarding marriage issue; but as usual, I'm not having high hopes. Like Kyra said, "Just let it be."

I am going to slowly retire from joining programs that'll left me knackered in the end of the day. It's enough with the new responsibilities I've been attached to, I don't want to be hard on myself. Keep a simple life; that's my motto for this year. Zaid would surely stop teasing me about my crave for merits and certificates after this, wouldn't you? Hahaha.. Even so, I'd still do what I should do.

Anyway, that's all the planning. The rest of it, I lay it on Your hands cause I know You know better.